Is this Reality? Conscious Chaos

In a world of illusion…what is real and what is not?


Does Africa Really Have A Hidden Paradise?

Which side of this reality are you viewing?


Hmm Africa…Oh Africa! or Um Africa? Which ever way you say it you still end up on one of the largest continents on the face of the planet earth largely populated by a nubian race. So what comes to ones mind when the word Africa is said? ; usually poverty stricken belly swollen babies with flies swarming around them, run down housing, and sights that are not very pleasing to attract tourism. I do not want to downplay the poverty stricken areas of Africa nor minimize the pain and recovery of some areas that have experienced war,famine, and rape of a natural resource wealthy land. However, it is time that the world acknowledge the cradle of civilization for what she really is, the source of much beauty and wealth. Many African Americans and Americans in general fail to realize the true paradise that lies within her womb pulsating and waiting for you to view her. Africa provides many tourists locations such as the historical Egyptian Pyramids, warm beaches of Senegal, and fun Wildlife tours of South Africa.

When one thinks of Egypt they may think of a desert filled area with people of Middle Eastern decent in a location that doesn’t quite equal Africa. However,when looking at any map it is clear to see that Egypt is in the continent of Africa. Just ask the 10 million tourists who visited in 2007 according to Egypt is at the top of Africa’s most visited sites largely due to it’s rich Ancient Egyptian history, and we know most people would love bask in it’s royal glow if only for a moment.

Now, Imagine a golden tan beach with beautiful clear water outlining it and sprinkled about the sand you can see European people sipping drinks, playing games, and reading books while enjoying the rays of the warm sun. To the surprise of many, this is what you may see when you visit the African Country of Senegal that is one of the most popular tourists sites in Africa for Europeans seeking refuge from harsh winter weather.

Hey, Do you want to see the most exotic animals on your next family trip? Well, pack your bags and update your passports because these animals aren’t at your local zoo. You would be heading to South Africa to see vibrant Zebras, Roaring Lions and enormous Elephants. South Africa is also very popular for bird watching. So the next time you turn on the News or Read a Magazine that has flies swarming around the “poor”Africans remember the paradise that many travel miles to see hidden and pulsating within her womb.


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More Resources and Info….

Africa Travel Facts on

Most Visited Country in Africa – Egypt is the most popular tourist destination in Africa. In 2007, Egypt attracted around 10 million visitors. The Pyramids have been a prime tourist attraction for the past 2000 years. South Africa came a close second with 9 million visitors in 2007 (based on figures from UNWTO).

Most Visited East African Countries – Kenya and Tanzania are the most popular East African countries for visitors. However, in 2008 Kenya’s tourist numbers declined drastically due to political instability. Both countries tend to attract visitors interested in combing a safari with some beach time.

Most Visited Country in Southern Africa – South Africa is by far the most popular country in the region. Visitors are attracted to its cities, beaches, wildlife parks as well as niche tourism like bird watching and medical tourism. Mozambique is the fastest emerging tourist destination in the region.

Most Visited Countries in West Africa – The Gambia and Senegal attract the most tourists in this region of Africa (which along with Central Africa draws the least amount of tourists on the continent). Both The Gambia and Senegal are popular beach destinations for Europeans fleeing the cold winter weather.

Most Visited Countries in North Africa – Egypt is the most popular tourist destination in North Africa, but Morocco has seen the largest growth in its tourism industry (14% in 2007 according to the UNTWO). Tunisia is also extremely popular, particularly with Europeans. 

Naked Nurturer and Sexuality

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Your pain and your ablility to analyze it is a beautiful sign that you are doing what I like to call ” Dirty Work” Some people can not even identify and acknowledge the issues that stem from their inner child. I never did understand why a woman would treat her child different when they looked like or reminded them of a father they were no longer with. My mom treated my sister pretty harshly because she didn’t like her dad and also I had a friend with the same dilema. It really does leave scars.
Dealing with men….this one is very tricky I think because it is hard to talk about without either sounding “old fashion” vs “independant womanish”. I am somewhere in the middle of that. My mother was born in Liberia and came here at age 19 she did it all worked and domestic family. We debated all the time that my mom treated my brother better because he had less chore and didn’t do nothing in the kitchen. Liberian men are pretty cocky but that is a whole nother thing. She married my dad who was American black guy. He use to always say he would not get married had he not met my mom cause of they way American women were. I had a chance first hand to see the difference. 

MY Mother Family -African “Liberian” 
MY Father Family- African American 
What I learned is that alot “not all” american black women get caught up in the mind frame of being an independat black women and for get the balance of family. I do understand both mind frames because we have been beaten down so much we don’t see or want to be the “nurturer” This is a burdensome job if you haven’t found the balance to nurture yourself FIRST and the joy to realize how powerful nurturing is. I am just not realizing it is an art.. I myself am not the most affetionate woman and I am somewhat cut off from my emotionl body. Remember I am with a Pisces who is Sooo… touch with his emotional body. This goes back to where you say they feel like burdens. I know this feeling…I am in a house with four boys a mate and a male cat. LMAO couldn’t get one girl so I created a group. But I digress….the burden is their dependency on our nurturing. The women is so so so central to this whole reality. Men who act so demanding and aggressive those are their little inner boys who didn’t get properly nurtured and or disciplined and now they put those demands on you. We as up and coming goddesses have to heal our selves first of course and then for lack of an un common term “set the record straight” When we set up boundries not walls and nurture not self sacrafice then we will heal our selves and the men involved. We we attract a mate that reflect a part of us….it is like looking at a mirror they will reveal to us our most beautiful self as well as our most ugly. Being in relationship is a healing journey with pain and joy…. Men are not”Evil” they are just Grown Men with “wounded inner boys” just like alot of us are Grown Women with” wounded inner girls”.
As far as the sexual nature of it goes I think women have bisexual tendancies by nature because we give birth to both sexes and nurture both sexes. I beleive we choose a male partner to merge with as a balance of male and female energy. If you are a woman with more maculine agression this sometime causes you to seek out nurturing from another woman usually because it was not received from your mother or if the father is absent it can cause you to take on the father mentality to your mom. There are many psycological levels of the expression of sexuality.

I titled this Naked Nurturer because we must reveal our most vulnerable selves in the act of giving nurturing love and affection.